Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Thursday, June 30, 2011
My trainer said to me today post-workout - "That was great. You did a great workout today." I don't know that I have been that proud in a long time. It was a HARD workout and my arms feel like Jell-o right now but I DID it and I didn't give up. Baby steps.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
245.5 - a loss of 3.5 since last week and a total loss of 10.5 since beginning this quest.
I am thrilled with the loss this week. YAY!
On the other hand, too much Extreme Makeover Weight Loss Edition makes me feel like I should be capable of losing 70 pounds in 3 months.
I was anticipating a good number this morning and I got one, so I'm not quite sure where this ambivalence is coming from. Oh well! It's off to the gym anyway!
Sunday, June 26, 2011
I'm going to confess something terrible. Ready? I miss binging. I really do. I miss being able to thoughtlessly eat and eat and eat. I miss the full feeling. I miss the way my mind would get quiet during a binge. I miss all of it.
I realized this today when I was having lunch with the family. The kids wanted pizza, so we went to our favorite place. I had a side salad, a water, and a slice of Hawaiian. And to be honest, I wanted to eat every slice in that store.
It's so weird to realize that really, I have been addicted to food. Or really, that I AM addicted to food.
Anyway, I didn't binge. I made good decisions. I did 30 min on the elliptical and did strength training for arms/shoulders today. I felt capable and like I knew what I was doing.
But I still miss binging.
Friday, June 24, 2011
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Monday, June 20, 2011
So I was on vacation for a week. I biked, I swam, I walked, and I ate appropriately. I was very proud of myself. And then at the tail end of my vacation, I got a kidney stone - a BAD one. I have had 5 in my life thus far and this one was SO bad that I landed in the hospital for a bit. Whew. I was so glad that was over.
We came home from vacation and I still wasn't feeling 100% but chalked it up to kidney stone recovery. Wrong! I had a giant ovarian cyst and was doubled over in pain from that.
Needless to say, I have been on a boatload of pain and nausea meds between the kidney stone and the cyst, and have not been working out. I am still not up to snuff but went back to my trainer last Thurs and back to my fitness class last Friday. It was ROUGH.
Because I have been feeling so crappy I have been eating badly, too. Not eating breakfast and then eating too much for lunch. Or not eating all day and then eating at bedtime, etc. I just have not been myself. I will be so glad to be feeling back to normal again.
Anyway, all that to say - 1) I'm BACK! and 2) I dread stepping on the scale tomorrow, but them's the breaks! See you then for the moment of truth - I am sure I have gained and I am also sure I will want to kick myself in the butt.